Being in a rut absolutely sucks.
It sucks when you are in a less than stellar mood. Everybody has those days where things don't right for them...often called "off" days. I've had them. Everybody's had them. But what's even worse is having a very good day...and then just having something that brings down your mood for some reason. It it sad when even thinking about someone that makes you happy somehow is able to bring you pain. It just kills your entire mood and make things less cheerful.
It especially sucks if you are around other people. Although you are in a down and not-so-happy mood, you try to hide your sadness around others so that they don't know. It seems similar to the song "Tears of a Clown" by Smokey Robinson, when he says:
Just like Pagliacci did
I try to keep my surface hid
Smiling in the public eye
But in my lonely room I cry
(Although the vast majority of the time I don't end up crying)
Maybe it is just a by-product of being by myself in my room, cause that where my ruts being most of the time. I just wish that I didn't feel this way...especially after what was a very good day.
Being in a rut absolutely sucks
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