This weekend has been extremely tiring, to say the least. Friday, I had Relay for Life, counting all of the money that participants raise and not getting any sleep until 7 am. While the night started off well, after 2 am it got to the point where I REALLY wanted to flip over a table because of my frustration of some of the numbers being off. In the end, however, we ended up raising over $60,000 for cancer research, and while we may have not met our goal, it was something that I am definitely proud of. And considering the fact that we had many changes in the people helping to set up the event and a relatively young committee, I believe that everyone should be absolutely thrilled with the work that was done. With that, however, came a dreadful Saturday in which I woke up at 3:30pm and was just drained physically and emotionally all day. Sunday was better, but still tiring...hopefully that will change this upcoming week...AS I GO HOME THIS UPCOMING WEEKEND!!! YES!!!!!!!
Ok...now that sort of the recap part of the post is done, time for sort of a mini-rant/vent/not-really-either-it-is-just-a-closure-sort-of-thing paragraph...and no, it is not about KU laying an egg Sunday against VCU (And Markieff Morris being two turnovers away from a triple-double). If you wish to skip this part...your call. I just wanted to put some closure on an issue (blame the Relay fatigue). So I know that I have said before that I have the worst luck when it comes to relationships...yadda yadda yadda, blah blah blah, man I suck, whatever. But after years of being down on myself about this (and yes, this has been since high school), it finally...yes, FINALLY...clicked in my head that there is nothing wrong with being single. You could say it is part of one of my goals for closing out my college career in "Being Happy With Who I Am" in the past, I have been envious about other couples and such, but it seems that things have finally clicked for some reason.
And in case some people were wondering, yes I have heard a good amount of the negative stigmas about Creighton guys: "We make great friends, but nothing really past that," the beer-goggles theory that make us look attractive, "All of the attractive guys at Creighton are either taken or gay," that we just suck in general...and I am sure there are others. It's even better when I hear these in front of me and then I comment about it and somehow people try to make me feel better about myself by saying, "Oh well, you are an exception" or try to think of another criteria that I would fit into. I know people don't try to intentionally hurt me but it does sting a little bit.
Hey, I'll admit it: I'm nerdy; I say weird things sometimes; I tend to steal a bunch of things from TV shows/video games/podcasts (I listen to a podcast called "Nerdist"...enough said); I tend to reference stuff that most people do not get at all; I am not really attractive at all (I consider myself middle-of-the-road, but attractive in my own way); I couldn't get a date to junior high prom (throwback); the only reason I got a date to high school prom was that I overheard someone not having a date (throwback #2); I've been single on Valentine's Day for 22 years in a row (it's hard to get a gf as an infant); I've made some bone-headed mistakes; people have put me in the friend zone before (and vice versa). And it has finally reached the point where I am OK with it. I feel like this is what makes me a unique person. Eventually, would I like to be one of the guys who has a gf? Yeah sure, and who knows? Maybe it will be someone that I least expected. However, it really isn't at the top of the list as far as concerns. I have come to the realization that it is better to have a core group of friends that will have your back no matter what (both male and female) than stressing out about who, as the cool kids say, "Likes me, likes me."
(sigh of relief) That's a relief to get that out of my system. Hopefully it wasn't too confusing and yet somewhat interesting (and somewhat amusing). Maybe that wasn't as "not happy" as I thought it would be. I certainly feel better about myself
Monday, March 28, 2011
Wednesday, March 23, 2011
Life Update (or Up-dizzle, whichever you prefer)
I will try to keep this post short (although I know for a fact that I will probably end up failing at that). In my last post, I decided to outline a set of goals for myself about what I wanted to accomplish as I finished out my college career. Believe it or not, after coming up these goals, things have been much better for me personally. I capped off a fantastic weekend of being a nerd for a night (Halo: Reach LAN Night) hanging out with really good friends on Saturday, and intramural soccer successes (well...one draw and one win) on Saturday. Even more impressive is that my NCAA tourney bracket is still somewhat intact (and KU is in the Sweet 16). But besides the point, it was a fantastic weekend.
Even better was gathering over $10,000 Monday night for Relay for Life at Bank Night, and Tuesday? Class canceled and a test is postponed til next week. Also, over the past few days, I have been able to gain a huge boost of optimism when it comes to my job search. So in the end, I am much more optimistic than I was weeks ago (thumbs up). Oh yeah...and I forgot one more goal that I had.
Finish the semester strong: Over the past couple of semesters in the 2nd half of them, I tend to trail off in my studies and sort of slack off. This semester, I cannot afford to do that, especially since one slipup could cost me a chance to graduate in May. So I really have to watch myself and finish strong.
However, I must end on a somber note...I am retiring the front desk blog...mostly because I have not updated that blog at all since I started writing for my personal blog. However, at the end of the my semester, I do plan on having a special treat posted on this blog about the desk...which means it will probably disappoint anyways...don't worry it won't (or at least it shouldn't).
Let's hope this optimistic train continues (and so much for this post being short). And with the retiring of the desk blog, I might need a new name for the new blog. Suggestions, anyone? (if any, of course)
Even better was gathering over $10,000 Monday night for Relay for Life at Bank Night, and Tuesday? Class canceled and a test is postponed til next week. Also, over the past few days, I have been able to gain a huge boost of optimism when it comes to my job search. So in the end, I am much more optimistic than I was weeks ago (thumbs up). Oh yeah...and I forgot one more goal that I had.
Finish the semester strong: Over the past couple of semesters in the 2nd half of them, I tend to trail off in my studies and sort of slack off. This semester, I cannot afford to do that, especially since one slipup could cost me a chance to graduate in May. So I really have to watch myself and finish strong.
However, I must end on a somber note...I am retiring the front desk blog...mostly because I have not updated that blog at all since I started writing for my personal blog. However, at the end of the my semester, I do plan on having a special treat posted on this blog about the desk...which means it will probably disappoint anyways...don't worry it won't (or at least it shouldn't).
Let's hope this optimistic train continues (and so much for this post being short). And with the retiring of the desk blog, I might need a new name for the new blog. Suggestions, anyone? (if any, of course)
Monday, March 14, 2011
Goals to Finish Out My College Career
Yes, two blogs in two days is a rarity from me, since I usually only blog once every two weeks. However, I was really thinking about how I was going to finish my college career. While it has been a rough semester (and to think this would be an easy semester :P), it doesn't mean that I can't finish it on a positive note. Here are a few goals that I have for myself, and maybe this will help those who may be graduating in the future (and let's just hope that I stick to these)
Don't let small things get me down: There are times when things that should be very minor tend to get the best of me. The worst part is that it will sometimes take me a while to get over some things and am afraid to face some of these issues head on because I am worried about awkwardness or doing something wrong. However, I must learn that things are not always gonna go my way, and it is how you react to these issues that are the most important.
Stay Optimistic: I have been on the hunt for jobs and so far the job hunt has not gone as well as I would have liked to. Many people have found jobs already, and sometimes I feel like I am waaaaaaaay behind other people, which may be my own fault. However, I have to learn to keep my head up and remember that there are many people in the same position that I am in. I just have to Keep on Truckin' (as Eddie Kendricks would say) and know that it will pay off soon.
Be More Cheerful: Another thing that I want to do is try to be more upbeat around other people. I have realize that in the past, people somewhat see me as a somewhat cheerful person, and it concerns people whenever I am not cheerful. Unfortunately, there are times when I just act cheerful when I not really feeling this way at all. I sometimes don't want other to deal with my problems, because I feel like I will burden them. However, I have met some fantastic people here at Creighton and have been able to maintain a couple of close friendships with people back in Lawrence. Plus, I have my parents as well. I just need to get myself to talk about these problems with people who are willing to listen, as it will help me feel better about things.
Enjoy Who I Am As a Person: While I may not be the most appealing person or the most attractive person (check that...I know that I am not the most attractive person. haha), it doesn't mean I have to change who I am as a person. I have already concluded that I am a huge nerd when it comes to certain things, such as sports, video games, sometimes TV shows...and I won't change my personality for anyone in order to make me more appealing. As long as I am respectful to the people that I know, people will learn to embrace some of the qualities of me as a person. I cannot control people's opinions really...I can only control how I act.
These are just a few things that I thought of personally...hopefully these will help me get me get through this semester. And hopefully it helped some other people out as well. Just typing this out has helped me to feel better, and it beats being "Mopey, "Negative Nancy" Werner." We will see how this goes...hopefully it is for the best.
Don't let small things get me down: There are times when things that should be very minor tend to get the best of me. The worst part is that it will sometimes take me a while to get over some things and am afraid to face some of these issues head on because I am worried about awkwardness or doing something wrong. However, I must learn that things are not always gonna go my way, and it is how you react to these issues that are the most important.
Stay Optimistic: I have been on the hunt for jobs and so far the job hunt has not gone as well as I would have liked to. Many people have found jobs already, and sometimes I feel like I am waaaaaaaay behind other people, which may be my own fault. However, I have to learn to keep my head up and remember that there are many people in the same position that I am in. I just have to Keep on Truckin' (as Eddie Kendricks would say) and know that it will pay off soon.
Be More Cheerful: Another thing that I want to do is try to be more upbeat around other people. I have realize that in the past, people somewhat see me as a somewhat cheerful person, and it concerns people whenever I am not cheerful. Unfortunately, there are times when I just act cheerful when I not really feeling this way at all. I sometimes don't want other to deal with my problems, because I feel like I will burden them. However, I have met some fantastic people here at Creighton and have been able to maintain a couple of close friendships with people back in Lawrence. Plus, I have my parents as well. I just need to get myself to talk about these problems with people who are willing to listen, as it will help me feel better about things.
Enjoy Who I Am As a Person: While I may not be the most appealing person or the most attractive person (check that...I know that I am not the most attractive person. haha), it doesn't mean I have to change who I am as a person. I have already concluded that I am a huge nerd when it comes to certain things, such as sports, video games, sometimes TV shows...and I won't change my personality for anyone in order to make me more appealing. As long as I am respectful to the people that I know, people will learn to embrace some of the qualities of me as a person. I cannot control people's opinions really...I can only control how I act.
These are just a few things that I thought of personally...hopefully these will help me get me get through this semester. And hopefully it helped some other people out as well. Just typing this out has helped me to feel better, and it beats being "Mopey, "Negative Nancy" Werner." We will see how this goes...hopefully it is for the best.
Saturday, March 12, 2011
Spring Break!!!!!!!!...Minnesota
During Spring Break, some people go to different places across the country or even outside of the country. Some go on service trips to different places, some go to St. Louis for the MVC tourney. Others go to places with warmer climates, like Florida or California or Padre. I thought it would be a smart idea to...go to Minnesota for the third straight year :P
However, I really can't complain about it at all. While my weekend at home was my "vacation," I would consider this to be sort of a "retreat" in a way. The first half of my final semester has been kinda rough (as I have shared/vented/complained with others), and it has pretty much had me counting down to Spring Break since the beginning of February. I definitely didn't have the most wild spring break, but it was definitely the most fulfilling for me. In addition to this, it came at the perfect time, as it gave me a chance to clear my head for an extensive period of time...look back at all of my mistakes, things I did well, things I can improve on, and other aspects of my life. Spending a week in a different state, just being able to relax for an entire week, get away from school, and hang out with a few friends along the way has been fulfilling...and that includes our 5+ hour fantasy baseball draft.
The last half of the semester will be busy, with various school projects, Relay for Life, job hunting, etc. But this past week has definitely been a refresher for me, filled with good friends, relaxing activities...and much colder weather than other places. However, this will definitely help me before I head into the final one and a half months of my college career, which is exciting...and frightening.
However, I really can't complain about it at all. While my weekend at home was my "vacation," I would consider this to be sort of a "retreat" in a way. The first half of my final semester has been kinda rough (as I have shared/vented/complained with others), and it has pretty much had me counting down to Spring Break since the beginning of February. I definitely didn't have the most wild spring break, but it was definitely the most fulfilling for me. In addition to this, it came at the perfect time, as it gave me a chance to clear my head for an extensive period of time...look back at all of my mistakes, things I did well, things I can improve on, and other aspects of my life. Spending a week in a different state, just being able to relax for an entire week, get away from school, and hang out with a few friends along the way has been fulfilling...and that includes our 5+ hour fantasy baseball draft.
The last half of the semester will be busy, with various school projects, Relay for Life, job hunting, etc. But this past week has definitely been a refresher for me, filled with good friends, relaxing activities...and much colder weather than other places. However, this will definitely help me before I head into the final one and a half months of my college career, which is exciting...and frightening.
Tuesday, March 1, 2011
Long Overdue Post Before Spring Break
Hello gang. Apologies for not being able to blog for a while. It has been a tough couple of weeks with school/midterms/trying to figure out what to do with my life/etc. But now that I am done with midterms (and yes, on Tuesday), I can finally relax.and be able to write this blog.
A couple of weekends ago (before what turned out to be another crappy week) I went back home to Lawrence, Kansas for the weekend...mainly it was to bring some of the stuff from my apartment back to Lawrence so I wouldn't have to worry about it later. However, I made the trip sort of like a mini-vacation for myself and sort of a "refresher." I got to be around my loving parents and my awesome miniature pinscher Brutus. It was just nice to be home and be away from the distractions and the stresses of Creighton, even if it was only for an evening on Friday, the whole day Saturday, and the morning on Sunday.
I admire my parents so much, and that admiration has especially grown since I have come to Creighton and been away from them. Both of my parents are currently working two jobs and are very successful. And they did all of this without graduating from college (which I didn't actually find out until I was applying for schools my senior year of high school). Before college, I would always seemed to get annoyed with their constant bickering for me to do well and get better. But once I found out that they had not graduated from college, it showed me why my parents were so hard on me. As I went through my college career when I was away from my parents, but I feel like I am closer to my parents than ever before. And Brutus...there isn't much to say except Brutus helps to put a huge smile on my face even when I am feeling my worst. Just his energy and his canine enthusiasm just brighten up the room and makes me happy. It also makes my mom happy, which is really nice to see since our first dog passed away.
It was a good thing that I went home, because the week that followed was not my favorite...three tests, part of a project, and research for a project all due. Add some personal stuff going on, and you have a recipe for disaster. It wasn't as bad as the week that I describe in my previous blog post eons ago, but it was still not the best week. If I didn't go home the weekend before...I probably would not have handled this previous week as well.
To conclude, I would like to offer an apology to those who may follow me on Twitter. I know that over the past few weeks, my tweets haven't been too happy or pleasant at all. With homework, studying, being close to graduation, personal stuff (girl problem, some family stuff, etc.), it all just seems to hit me at once. And I know that since I have been some of in a downer mode, there have been people who may have not talked to me as much as previously, which is understandable (shrugs). But I would like to thank those who have asked me if I am ok and have told me to tweet more positively (Kevin Harrington). But now that Spring Break is approaching, I might be able to finally look forward to life again instead of being a complete Negative Nancy about it.We will see how things go after the break...hopefully a lot better for me.
(crosses fingers)
A couple of weekends ago (before what turned out to be another crappy week) I went back home to Lawrence, Kansas for the weekend...mainly it was to bring some of the stuff from my apartment back to Lawrence so I wouldn't have to worry about it later. However, I made the trip sort of like a mini-vacation for myself and sort of a "refresher." I got to be around my loving parents and my awesome miniature pinscher Brutus. It was just nice to be home and be away from the distractions and the stresses of Creighton, even if it was only for an evening on Friday, the whole day Saturday, and the morning on Sunday.
I admire my parents so much, and that admiration has especially grown since I have come to Creighton and been away from them. Both of my parents are currently working two jobs and are very successful. And they did all of this without graduating from college (which I didn't actually find out until I was applying for schools my senior year of high school). Before college, I would always seemed to get annoyed with their constant bickering for me to do well and get better. But once I found out that they had not graduated from college, it showed me why my parents were so hard on me. As I went through my college career when I was away from my parents, but I feel like I am closer to my parents than ever before. And Brutus...there isn't much to say except Brutus helps to put a huge smile on my face even when I am feeling my worst. Just his energy and his canine enthusiasm just brighten up the room and makes me happy. It also makes my mom happy, which is really nice to see since our first dog passed away.
It was a good thing that I went home, because the week that followed was not my favorite...three tests, part of a project, and research for a project all due. Add some personal stuff going on, and you have a recipe for disaster. It wasn't as bad as the week that I describe in my previous blog post eons ago, but it was still not the best week. If I didn't go home the weekend before...I probably would not have handled this previous week as well.
To conclude, I would like to offer an apology to those who may follow me on Twitter. I know that over the past few weeks, my tweets haven't been too happy or pleasant at all. With homework, studying, being close to graduation, personal stuff (girl problem, some family stuff, etc.), it all just seems to hit me at once. And I know that since I have been some of in a downer mode, there have been people who may have not talked to me as much as previously, which is understandable (shrugs). But I would like to thank those who have asked me if I am ok and have told me to tweet more positively (Kevin Harrington). But now that Spring Break is approaching, I might be able to finally look forward to life again instead of being a complete Negative Nancy about it.We will see how things go after the break...hopefully a lot better for me.
(crosses fingers)
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